Had a voracious lunch (alone!) and proceeded straight to the
Basketball court. ( BAD IDEA)
I played for 45 minutes and in that time out of around
50 shots to the hoop...I managed to score only around
7-8 times.... My form was that pathetic...it was kinda frustrating
cause I was hopin to have a nice time....anyway..
to add insult to injury when I came back I decided to confront something that
I should have done about a week ago.
Before I tell you more..its FLASHBACK time.....(yoohoo)
When I had reached Bangalore, I was kinda alone. Agreed
I had friends but they were guys...ok there are things u can do with
guys but its always nice to be in a relationship with someone of
the opp. sex. So here i was settling down and having a rocking time
boozing and gettin used to this beautiful city..and then due to
some magical twist of fate, I get an SMS from someone.
Delving deeper into the matter I realised she was a girl.(thankfully!)
I had called her up one day and had a decent conversation... :-)
couldnt believe my luck.. the fact that she was 7 years my junior was just a minor deterrant...(apparently she liked my voice..!)
I used to have a lovely time talking with her @ nights and things were
kinda cool... until 3 weeks ago... There was this big misunderstanding
(cause of me) as a result of which we didnt talk for a week.
I did break the ice and tried to get things back to what they were..
somehow things didnt revert back to normal ) .
END OF FLASHBACK
welcome back folks!
hehe...ok so I proceeded to give her a call ( Remember in the beginning I Said Bad Idea? ,multiply it by 1000...this was that bad! but I didnt know it then..did I?) ..
She was having lunch...in college...First of all she was surprised on hearing my name.. I guess she wanted everyone around her to know that the Asswipe had called...so she was like "Rohan.....is this Rohan?!"
I then proceeded to ask her a casual question. There was COLD deathly silence on the other end.
I repeated the question like 4 times (silly me)
An then at that exact moment..It hit me..The truth finally dawned upon me...(in black and white) I realised that it was truely over.. I killed the connection,sent her a thank u sms/greeting and closed the chapter.
Now that im reflecting on this incident, I cannot but help remember my mental state at that point.. inspite of the noetic emotive katharsis I had mixed feelings ..
:-)+:-( =:-
Agreed my emotional feelings were at an all time low...I had sunk to such depths that I havent seen in a long time...and that too for someone who I considered just a friend .... Now you might feel that these are negative,antagonistic feelings..wheres the :-)..... hold ur horses mate..:D
Now ive always believed in the law of averages and the fact that emotionally life kinda follows a sine wave pattern...and since I was at the lowest point of the negative kind...things are bound to improve soon...(see I know im a die hard Optimist!) ...as I am surrounded by pitch darkness all around me I see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel ....So I decided to move on...
This was a pretty bad day for me...and things definitely cant get any worse than that............ or can they????
Only time will tell :)
